So I haven't been as good as I would like on the updates on our newest addition. She will be SIX weeks this Friday. That is just so crazy to me that my lil munchkin is already going to be that old. This most likely being our last... I have been wanting to hold onto ever little moment, store it in a box and keep it safely foever. But I am realizing I can't. I have spent many days, just holding her, kissing her, breathing her beautiful smell. Not wanting to miss a single breath. And it is like I woke up this morning... with the Wooooo where has all my time gone with her. I actually have many days when it is just me and her, the other girls are off to school.... and we just snuggle. I don't do dishes, laundry... I just sit in my chair... holding her, falling asleep.. and being in my lil heaven. I have felt very selfish having those moment.. as when the girls get home, I get the 'that have you done all day".. and I simple say "spent time with the baby". I woke up this morning thinking.. I don't have to be sorry for those moments, I am a mommy. I realize that my three older ones are growing way too fast. I can't really take them in my arms, sleep, cuddle and breath them in all day. Those days have past. With Peyton... I am going to take advantage of every oppurtunity that I can just take in all the moment, be with her every second that I can. And wipe away my tears when I can't do it anymore.
There is the most amazing song by Darius Rucker "It won't be like this for long" it is posted here on my page. It honestly makes me cry, the ugly cry, everytime that I hear it... but how true and beautiful every word is.
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