I think I can, I think I can

I have told myself that I am going to be more positive... it seems like the past six months it has been one thing after another.. I actually might be able to date this back eight months. I am talking about negativity ... I think that a lesson that was sent to me and it took me all of about nine years to learn taught me a lot about anger and holding onto something. I would like to say that I have learned to let it go. But tonight I was reminded that I need to "Stop and Breath.". I was hurt by someone that was close to me and my family recently. It has taken everything in me to attempt the high road, and swallow. I have wanting to stand up and fight for myself. Defend myself with the rumors that have been spread. I have like to look back in the past and say that I am the type of person that stands for what I think... A tell it like it is kind of girl. To let you know that I don't agree with what you might say.. and argue why it should be like that. But I now I look back and it was my way of holding onto the negative. So with this situation I have tried to be the bigger person and not respond. Although I can say I've made my views clear to my husband and complained and cried to him... but no one else. I think that he can keep my anger locked in a safe place.
But lately I keep telling myself that I don't want to drama or negative anymore, no matter where it is coming from. Tonight I had a friend accuse me something... than go on and yell at me... I didn't respond... although I did write her an email telling her how I felt.. as soon as I wrote it I erased it, it made me feel better.

Tonight.. I have learned the lesson of letting it go. Write it out. Get it out. Than let it go. I am 30, I am done with the lil games. I am done with the drama. I just want to have people in my life that give me positive and allow me to be a better mother, wife, daughter and friend.

So here I am ... Writing It... and Letting it Go. I don't want it anymore, so please respect that.

Thanks for letting me vent and Let it Go!!

Couples Quiz

couple quiz
♥ What are your middle names?
Rey (Ben) Ann (Christie)
♥ How long have you been together?
10 years and 3 months
♥ How long did you know each other before you started dating?
Well you can say since 7th grade, we stayed friends till Sophomore year than went in different directions. We reconnected in 1999 through a mutual friend and have been inseparable since.
♥ Who asked who out?
Hmmm.... He asked for my number, didn't call for a week, I got his number from my best friend, called him that night, he came over and hung out and we have been together ever since!
♥ Who made the first move?
He did, after hanging out a few times he kissed me good bye one night.
♥ Did you go to the same school?
Yes, Elementary school, Jr High, High School and even attended Pima at the same time without our knowledge. This comes into a bad mess sometimes knowing too much about eachother.
♥ Are you from the same home town?
No he grew up in Flagstaff than moved to Tucson in 5th grade.
♥ Who is the smartest?
I would say that he is pretty darn smart about a lot of things.. how about we compliment eachothers knowledge.
♥ Who majored in what?
Ben majored in sports.. haha and I majored in Business.
♥ Who is the most sensitive?
I would say me being the girl, but Ben is very caring
♥ Where do you eat out most as a couple?
Texas Roadhouse (Ben's favorite) or Olive Garden (Christie's favorite)
♥ Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Disneyland
♥ Who has the worst temper?
I do all the way!!! Ben is very calm and collected.
♥ How many children do you want?
We have our four which I am good with... although Ben thinks he is going to talk me into one more and it will be a boy.
♥ Who does the cooking?
I say that we do our equal share.
♥ Who is more social?
I am
♥ Who is the neat-freak?
I am
♥ Who wakes up earlier?
Weekdays Ben.. Weekends Me.
♥ Where was your first date?
First time we hung out my house... first date Olive Garden
♥ Who has the bigger family?
His he has five kids, I'm an only child
♥ Do you get flowers often?
Often no, but I do get them every once in awhile as a surprise.
♥ How do you spend the holidays?
We get to see both families since they live blocks within eachother
♥ Who is more jealous?
I think him
♥ How long did it take to get serious?
about a month, his friends couldn't believe it!!
♥ Who eats more?
He does
♥ What do you do for a living?
Ben works for Frito as a route salesman, I am a stay at home mom and love it!!
♥ Who does/did the laundry?
I do, he helps fold
♥ Who’s better with the computer?
me
♥ Who drives when you are together?
mostly Ben
♥ What is "your" song?
Our #1 song is crazy by 112

*I saw this one Ben's cousins blog.. and stole it*

The girls with their favorite UofA soccer player Devin!!!




Our Little Peytter Tatter

Oh My, I suck at this blog thing

So Peyton is now 9 months, on Dec 6th.. Reyna turned 12 on November 18th... Josalyn is going to be 9 Jan 4th and Kia turned 6 back in July... and here I am forever and a day since I last updated our Family Blog.... I will blame it on the always good to go back on having four kids, a husband... but really that is no excuse.. I see these wonderful mother and wives that are keeping up with the blog world. So who I am to place the blame elsewhere.

So let me go in order starting with Reyna. Yes she is now 12!! Is in young woman's and is loving it. I am so happy for her!! She gets to start the next chapter in her life. Although I can't wait to be on for the ride, I am sure that it is going to be a roller coaster for the teenager years. I just pray that I can teach her everything she needs to know.... I question this on a daily bases. I am so thankful that she will have the gospel as her stepping stone and crutch as she grows. I look back and think about how different I would have lived those years if I had the gospel in my life. Not only the gospel but that wonderful example of the other kids at that age. I am thankful that she will have that in her life. I love watching her grow everyday.. yes I have my concerns, but I love watching the young lady that she is becoming. Even if she has a patch of hot pink, or bright blue in her hair ;-)

Josalyn is almost 9!! It is so hard for me to grasp this. She has grown so much over the summer. I love watching her with Peyton... it is so cute!! She is doing great in school. The one thing about Josalyn that those that know her see, she is the most caring and loving little soul. She is always so concerned about everyone around her.. I am trying to teach her that sometimes she has to stop and focus on herself also, she doesn't like that idea.

Kia is crazy silly Kia. The things that come out of her mouth on a daily bases crack me up. She is loving school, making good friends. She is a silly all over the place full of energy girl!!

All three played soccer this season.. boy was that hectic! Ben assistant coached Reyna's team. But that meant soccer 6 days a week, including Ben playing. Reyna was asked to play AllStars this season so we are really excited for her!!

Now to my little Peyton, or Peytter Tatter!! She is now nine months old. She has been crawling for about three months now. But she is so done with that and has been trying to walk.. she has taken up to five steps. She's been cruising along furniture for some time, maybe two months. I love spending my days with her, not missing a moment. I love being home just her and I.. I am trying to hold onto every little moment.

I hope that you all have a wonderful Holiday Season. We are going to be able to spend sometime with Lindsay and Jack, we are so excited about that!! We are going to be able to spend time with both our families this Christmas. My cousin is expected to have a baby any day now.. can't wait for that!! We hope that you all find yourself with those that love and warm your hearts. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

I have not been very good about keeping up with this family blog and Peyton updates.

On Saturday my sweetness is going to be 3 months old!! And how that makes my heart happy and sad at the same time. She started her big girl smiles and cooing. She is sleeping well at night only waking up once. I just absolutely love spending every second with her, she makes every second lovely.

My other three little ones are home for the summer... We've done alot of swimming and boy are they getting tan. My Kia is finally swimming on her own. She had a very scary moment two summers ago and has been so scared of the water, but she is finally over it. And I give her another week and she is going to be a little fish.

Can I just tell you that I love summer... No schedule! Just sleeping in!! Don't have anywhere to be!!

Aunt Dory-Easter-and- Family Fun

This last week we got the wonderful treat of having Aunt Lins come and visit us for a week. She was able to meet her new little niece Peytters (as Kia calls her), see Kia's concert, have a Three Musketeers Sister night, be here for Peyton's blessing and Easter. It was such a nice great week!!! I think that Josy was so excited to have her here. It was so cute Lindsay warned everyone before she got here that she was going to hold the baby the whole time she was here. She stuck to that, I think that she came over every night that she was here, and just sat and loved her. Lindsay and Jack have a new road in their life. Jack got an internship in Mississippi and they are moving there next week. It is weird.. Knowing that I don't get to see her everyday, but it is a little hard to think that she is going to be even further away now.


The girls have been good.

Kia was sick the last couple of days. But other than that has been doing great. She had her kindergarten concert last Friday and was so excited that lots of family was able to be there. She was SUPER excited that Aunt Lindsay flew all the way from Utah just to see her sing... haha.


Josalyn is loving school. She is in Girl Scouts and is just loving it, sad that it is coming to an end. But we had a mommy and me Tea Party two weeks ago and it was so nice to be able to spend that one on one time with her.



Reyna is doing great. She was involved in the Allstars Soccer team, and really enjoyed the experience. We are trying to get a feel i f she is committed to this, and we will get her into club soccer. She will also be doing swim team this summer.





So there was a daddy daughter camp out for our ward this last Friday. With Ben taking all the girls camping. minus Peyton, it gave Lindsay, Brittany and I to have a girls night. We went to Brittany's soccer game, out to dinner and than came home and watched Twilight, Britt hadn't seen it yet.




But it also left the girls with a camping memory that they will never forget.

Ben took the girls, the weather said chance of rain, but he thought that wasn't right there was no clouds in the sky. Well they set up camp, and hung out around the fire. All went to bed. Than in the middle of the night... it started to rain.. and as it did the tent started to cave in. Ben spent about two hours holding it up, when all the sudden the wind picked up and the tent blew over. Which than put a huge hole in the tents roof. He ran over to the car, trying to carry two of the girls. He rode with a friend) and the car was locked. He ran over to Ty's tent asking for the keys.. and Ty allowed him and the girls to climb in the tent with them. The girls said it was freezing cold and horrible. Poor things!! But like Ben said. the positive is they won't ever forget that camping trip with Daddy =)

Peyton Update

So I haven't been as good as I would like on the updates on our newest addition. She will be SIX weeks this Friday. That is just so crazy to me that my lil munchkin is already going to be that old. This most likely being our last... I have been wanting to hold onto ever little moment, store it in a box and keep it safely foever. But I am realizing I can't. I have spent many days, just holding her, kissing her, breathing her beautiful smell. Not wanting to miss a single breath. And it is like I woke up this morning... with the Wooooo where has all my time gone with her. I actually have many days when it is just me and her, the other girls are off to school.... and we just snuggle. I don't do dishes, laundry... I just sit in my chair... holding her, falling asleep.. and being in my lil heaven. I have felt very selfish having those moment.. as when the girls get home, I get the 'that have you done all day".. and I simple say "spent time with the baby". I woke up this morning thinking.. I don't have to be sorry for those moments, I am a mommy. I realize that my three older ones are growing way too fast. I can't really take them in my arms, sleep, cuddle and breath them in all day. Those days have past. With Peyton... I am going to take advantage of every oppurtunity that I can just take in all the moment, be with her every second that I can. And wipe away my tears when I can't do it anymore.
There is the most amazing song by Darius Rucker "It won't be like this for long" it is posted here on my page. It honestly makes me cry, the ugly cry, everytime that I hear it... but how true and beautiful every word is.

Peyton Jillian

okay so although my sweet precious is now a week old... I am finally posting about my sweetness.

Peyton Jillian was born March 6, 2009 at 10 am. She was 6 lbs 12 oz and 18 1/2 inches long.


Okay so I was determined to have the baby that weekend. But after thinking about it thought, okay I will just hold off and she may come on her own soon. Well my water broke Friday morning at 3:15... and we were at the hospital by 4... I had to take a shower and have my mom come and be with the girls. Let me tell you the sadness but also slight funny thing that happened. Thursday evening I was driving Reyna and our car pool to soccer practice along the way Kia threw up in the car. Well as I was getting in the shower I asked Ben to go and check on Kia... when she decided at that moment to throw up.. so water broke and a child is puking.. Lovely!!

Well when we got to the hospital.. my contraction were not steady. They were happening about every 15-20 minutes. They admitted me. Got me my epideral around 6:30. Started me on putocian about 7ish... When the doctor checked me there was still a little sack of water between the baby and the cervices.. they popped that about 9ish... had a steady contraction from than on and delivered her at 10.

I will admit I cried for a split second when the doctor said "It's a Girl", but right after that they placed her on me... and I was crying tears of Joy and Love. Reyna and Josalyn wanted to be in the room when I delivered. Reyna was all about being right there watching it all. Josalyn was a little more stand offish and waited till they had her in the baby warmer to walk over and look at her. She is perfect in every way... just beautiful, sweet and what a beautiful spirit she has brought us!!

I AM IN LOVE!!!

36 1/2 Week Preggo Update

This is a picture Reyna took of my on Friday the 27th. I look soooo Big.

So here is the update as of now. I am at 5cm and 80%. And Miserable!!! On Saturday I will be 37 weeks, and Ben has given me the okay that I can start doing the tactics of trying to go into labor... so Friday I am going to be walking the mall, walking, and walking. if that doesn't work than I will be going full force on Saturday. I am really hoping that this lil one will be coming this weekend.

Here is another picture. This one is of my friend Nikki.... she was due the 6th... so she is about two to three weeks ahead of me. She had her baby boy on Monday.... But look at how GIGANTIC I am compared to her....

Josalyn's Baptism

My Jos got baptized on January 31st. She is so sweet, beautiful and Lovable.
Here are some pictures from her day!!

Week 34 Update

I just wanted to let everyone know what is going on with me and this little bundle of joy... well as of right now the little stinker!!

At my last doctor's appointment which was the 4th, I let the Dr. know that I was having off and on contractions and pressure. I was at 2cm and 20%. Wellllll....

I had to go into the hospital on Thursday afternoon, with contractions. I was at 3cm and 60%. After some steroids and the medication to stop the labor they sent me home about 10 that night. I had to come in the next day for more steroids... while they monitored me I was contracting but nothing constant, so they released me. Around 7 Friday night, I was in tears and thought for sure I was in full on labor. After monitoring me, giving me more labor stop medicine, my Dr. admitted me. I am now at 4cm and 75%. Soooooo as the doctor said, I am on FULL... lay in bed bedrest. As long as I go two to three more weeks, things should be good. And I am going to listen, she told me if I have to come in one more time they'll admit me to the hospital! And I so don't want to do that... just that one night was no fun, so uncomfortable.

So we are just wanting... the doctor says as long as I go two to three more weeks, everything should be good. And the steriod shots helped... So... let's hope that this lil one is good with stayin in and cookin a lil longer!!!!